I am so glad we are friends and I can tell you anything. You already know I didn’t write my memoir as I had promised in the beginning of the summer. And I have to confide that I still harbor a secret desire to do so. I have another chance. And it is a good chance.
There is a six month course almost guaranteeing that I will complete my memoir in six months, by the end of this course. I want to take it so bad. BUT I am so SCARED!! I have doubts now. 1-my memories are sepia and faded. 2-I have tried so many times and failed. 3-What will keep me from failing yet again?
However, the good thing going for me is that I have a stronger idea of craft from having taken so many courses and classes and workshops on memoir.
So you see? I’m terrified about doing it. I still may not. I’m taking this kickstarter course first, for the next bunch of Mondays to see if I’ve got what it takes.
The money is astronomical. And my memories are DIM. I’m definitely going to have to rely on my journal. Go back and re read those areas of my life I want to share with people. And hope it’s enough.
I haven’t changed my about page, since I started this blog two years ago. And you can see how I wanted to make my journal into public writing even back then. I’ve taken courses and classes and workshops. So it’s now or never. I guess that is why I’m so scared. This ultimatum and decision facing me.
Have any of you faced a similar dilemma of taking on a project? A BIG job that will take you into hurtful places and you have tried and tried before and failed yet you want to try one more time?? Tell me. Make me smile. 🙂
See you Friday! I’ve got another fairy tale for you. And on Tuesday will give you another reason why I’m working hard on memoir right now.
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