My memoir classmate, Ann Jewett, has unwittingly spoken something Eleanor Roosevelt said as well. Eleanor Roosevelt didn’t want to linger in the past. She was impatient with it. Eleanor Roosevelt said she just wanted to look forward and that there was so much to do.
Ann Jewett has cancer. And I was shocked to hear this. My prayers go out to her. Another thing about her shocked me.
She deleted her memoir because she doesn’t want to look back any more. This announcement greatly affected me because I know how hard she worked on it. Also because I am still hard at work with mine. My memoir, “Spiraling, My Battle With Bipolar Disorder, still has three more chapters to go. I still need to look back to finish it.
Here is Ann Jewett’s blog post on where she says Cancer doesn’t define her. And again it gave me pause. Because even though her disease doesn’t define her, mine does define me. Bipolar Disorder does define me in many ways. I have to struggle daily in keeping a schedule and be religious in taking my medicine. But Ann made me think in other ways as well.
She is influencing me to work harder on my memoir. Yes, I have to look back to finish it but meanwhile I can begin to help people. I am really happiest when I am helping people. I guess that is partly why I chose nursing as my profession. I would have stayed in it longer if not for my back pain and consequent back surgeries. See how I conquered it here.
So my goals have changed somewhat. I am going to work harder than ever on finishing my memoir. Yes, and look back while I’m doing this. And also I can start looking forward at the same time.
To begin with, I reupped my commitment to my ESOL, English as a Second Language, volunteering I was doing before summer came. And in the department of mental illness I am going to sign up to walk for it in our neighborhood in October. I saw the announcement in our Parks and Rec Center where I take Pilates. Then I am going to pay better attention to the NAMI, National Association for the Mentally newsletters I get in my inbox. In them I hope to see some other ways I can help locally. And I will seek out my local members and ask if there is anything I can do.
I am not going to do this all at once because I still want to focus on my writing. I still need time to finish that darn memoir. But maybe I don’t need to spend all my time on it. I can be more structured. I can make a schedule. So now you know my hopes and goals. Look forward. Thanks, Ann.
Have any of you had that time where you realized looking back was not working for you? And maybe you just had to start looking forward? Maybe you were depressed and needed a new attitude? Let me know in the comments, okay?
And here is a link for my writer friends.
Here is a link for us memoir or middle grade authors: What to do to write a Gut Wrenching Scene from K. M. Weiland
And for a look at a logo my friend Margot Finke made me? Here it is about my two picture books. We are still waiting for the print version of Edmund Pickle Chin. It is in e -version on the publisher’s web site though. Susan and I got a proof of Edmund Pickle Chin last Wednesday and corrected the errors for our publisher. Now to get the final one in the mail. We are more than eager to see it in print… It has gone on much too long.
Thanks for reading friends!
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