Why all the resistance? Why all the fight, I ask myself. Why have I waited so long to start a meditation practice?
I have been wallowing in limited thinking. It came from within me, thinking God limited by not being interested in the minutiae of everyday life. I even stopped praying. I forgot that God is always present in every aspect of our lives. I forgot that He is abundantly present; that there is an unlimited supply of Spirit. Spirit as defined by our thoughts and our attitude.
All I have to do is call on It; on Him to satisfy every need. But I have to be the one to connect. It’s my thoughts, my attitude that leads me to greater faith. Like what our way shower, Jesus said about the door-“knock and it shall be opened”, first I have to knock, to connect.
It’s what I heard a long time ago. Pretend God is sitting in an arm-chair, waiting for us in a room with the door half-open. God is waiting for us to come in and visit. I just need to go in.
When I stop to examine my thoughts about not meditating, I think I fear a loss of control. Although all I know of meditation is that you need a lot of control to do it. It takes saying goodbye to all those thoughts that come unbidden to your mind as you try to empty it. I think on the one hand meditation is a form of control. It’s easier to pray, to let God in that way. Talking to God rather than listening for Him. Meditation does take more discipline. You can’t do it in a crowded area or while washing the dishes. There needs to be time set aside. But I’ve heard the rewards are greater than I can say.
Meditation is conscious communion with God. How scary is that? What will I find? I’ve heard God is Love beyond all-knowing. Am I afraid of love? That doesn’t sound scary. When I meditate with others at church it isn’t scary or overwhelming. I love it. I find inner peace and calm. So wouldn’t that extrapolate to my own personal meditation time? All I need is the discipline to go do it. Scheduling a time apart takes an inner strength. I need to go to the room and meet God.
After I read ‘Spirit Lights the Way’s’ post on meditation “to commit to sit” I took the challenge and will meditate for 26 days. The first two are over. And yes, it felt good. Not at all scary but restful and yes the time was hard to come by, but worth it. I’m looking forward to the other 24 days.
www.how-to-meditate.org —- from the Dalai Lama on meditation
Do you meditate? What do you find there? Do you have trouble doing it? Did you have a hard time getting started?